As you all know, I've had to go through a very difficult time and I'm finally able to say it's all in the past. Like I say to my friends ... I feel like I'm in the shallow end of the pool instead of drowning in the deep end with my depression.
Yikes - I said the word!
Well, I don't know why it's so shocking for people to read that. Maybe if more people in and out of the public eye were open about what is really going on in their lives, there wouldn't be so much sadness in the world.
We wouldn't feel alone and we could talk about the reality of life, not all this fake superficial babble about how fantastic they are when it's all a lie.
I'm only continuing to talk about my struggles and include this in my blog because of the e-mails I've received. I'm very touched by those who wrote letters of support and told me of their own battles.
I've even had close friends tell me they were/are fighting the same thing and tried to hide it from everyone ... even me! There is hope for each and every one of us. I'm living proof. Don't ever give up!!
Ahem. Stepping off my soapbox now. Just had to get it out there. Having said all that, things have never been better in my life. I've been crazy busy and traveling all over and enjoying every second of it. In fact I haven't written in so long I have no idea where to start!
Aside from traveling I was at Fashion Week in Vegas two weeks ago and had a blast! I worked at Project in the day, fashion shows at night and photo shoots in between every day. After that was all done I picked on all the "fashion-forward" tourists in the cash games.
It was quite the week! Right now I'm at the beautiful Borgata, my second home in Atlantic City. I love it here. Check out my previous blogs on the hottest stop on the poker tournament trail.
I'll be here till the 19th for the prelims leading up to their $5 million guarantee $10k main event - yup, $5 million guarantee! I'll be playing, doing video updates and interviews and maybe even a photo shoot!
Keep your fingers crossed! I have a small chance to be in their calendar, the famous Babes of Borgata. If you don't know about these girls, you're missing out.
During the main event at each new level of the first day, the girls walk past all the tables holding cards showing the level change. Think of ring girls, only hotter. I'll tell you this - no one forgets the levels are up in this main event! Lol.
And when I'm not doing those things I mentioned above, I'll be in my favorite place - the Pump Room, Borgata's badass gym. It has everything ... even this new machine I've never seen before that kicks my butt!
Why am I hitting the gym so hard? Well, first and foremost I am a model, but most importantly, I'll be shooting for the November cover of Bluff Magazine!! RRRowrrr. It will be their four-year anniversary and they are shooting four sexy ladies on four different covers!
Make sure to pick 'em all up. I'll make sure to write all about it with video and pics later this month.
It's an all-new live interactive poker-themed show. We have all the top pros signed on and there will be tons of prizes. You'll even have a chance to win a million dollars!
Doyle, Daniel, Gavin, Scotty, Jen, almost every Phil in the book, Antonio, and many more will be on the show. Two pros each night will play against six other people Paul and I choose from the audience. They'll compete for tons of prizes, cash and much more.
Only there's a few twists compared to the ol' sit-and-gos we're used to. We knock off people who are the shortest stack in an undisclosed amount of hands and the audience gets to be the ninth player. Each person in the audience gets a video monitor to play along with the table.
I'll write more about the show as we get closer to the grand opening on Oct. 21. Believe me, this is the hottest new concept for not just poker, but entertainment on the Las Vegas Strip.
Make sure to check back for all my antics - I promise you'll be seeing a lot more of me now. I wish all the best to everyone out there.
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